shirenomad

This is not how I usually plan to spend my daily websurfing. But it deserves to be read. Not so much for Tony's sake -- he's beyond such concerns now, for better or worse -- but for those still here.

Everyone, if you are on my friends list, you mean something to me. If you aren't, but knew enough to find this journal, odds are good you still mean something to me. If we've conversed on the Boards, or if we've met in person, or if we've ever chatted over any number of programs... I had been out of touch with Steve for nearly two years when news of his death reached me, and it still hit hard knowing I wouldn't talk to him again in this life. Those of you reading this now; that goes double for you.

I see a lot of depressed people out there. I don't know if Net users are more depressed on average, or just feel freer to express their feelings here. But to all of you, find a reason to keep going. Be it what you're still capable of accomplishing, or the will to overcome whatever temporary hardship has hit you, or even (as one person on my list once declared) to spite the people who insisted you'd always be a loser. But most of all, because there are people out there who do give a rip that you're still here, and who would miss you should you go. I'm one of them. And I thought you deserved to know that before your eulogy.

Peace out,
Chris "CMZ" Reaves